gracesonfiahhh

i haven't really wrote here in awhile so, here goes!
vacation was awesome! Ive been driving a lot and i cant wait to get driving hours and then get my license in June!
vacation was awesome and well needed!
i get to pick up my prom dress tomorrow i think?
oh and on the bright side of everything thing H.Reed feels the need to start shit again.

i question my existence.

FUCK IT.
on a better note im loving this summer weather.
but i hate most people.

i really needed this week to be over
and i needed the weekend.
i just had a terrible terrible terrible week, i don't believe anything went right.

im sick of going through the motions of life. i feel like im 'just here' i want to live and do something. but im stuck in slow motion and i dont know how to get in forward. im back into depression for no reason. i have amazing friends and i have no reason to be depressed. it must be the weather. please let it be the weather.

i didn't know Steve to well but its so sad to know that life can end so quickly. its AMAZING how EVERYONE came together. he made Alexa so happy. whenever she came into yearbook she never was unhappy she would just talk about Steve. i never heard any bad rumors about Steve, and no one had anything bad to say about him. god takes the best. Steve was SO lucky to have an amazing support system while he was in the hospital. I'm so mad he's gone, i prayed so hard! so so so hard! he was an amazing person and has everything reason to be here! he has done nothing wrong! this whole thing has made me realize life is to fucking short and can end to quickly.
may angels lead you in, you made an impact on us ALL. Stephen <3

my sister hasnt stopped crying since her dog got hit in front of her eye. but then again can you blame her? i would too. some ass hole kid in her grade told her "well you can just get a new one" my sister isnt like that. she REALLY loved that dog. and so did my friends and her friends. my sister almost got hit. and im happy she didnt. that driver is an asshole for not turning around. a dog is a big thud to hit. and is it really that hard not to text while driving?


i dont know steve well, but its always the good ones that this happens too. i havent stopped praying. and neither should anyone else.

"if you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer." Matthew 21:22

i really just want to cry, cry for no reason.
im still sick, really sick.
i have so much school work to make up.
-i dont know why im texting you.-
i cant sleep at night. and cant get up in the morning.
i feel like i need a ranting session, but i dont think words can express how i feel.

on a good note i got my permit. way over due.

i.hate.being.sick.

im enjoying life, and i love it.